Extracts from my diary

I wanted to share a few extracts from diary from the last week.  My project moves forward and even though I do not know what the end result will be exactly yet.  The diary is coming along.  I have had moments of despair but also some moments of joy! 

Day One
I was considering at first why I should do this as I always consider diaries slightly dangerous.  I think it was in one of Gautier's books where a woman's affair was discovered through her letters and diary and the man did not understand why she had not burnt all of this as it is evidence of the infidelity.  I think, like my last project, there is an element of remembering as I often think time passes and I can't recall the details of all the days.

The day started with us (my partner and I) in bed looking at the clouds, or should I say he was looking at the clouds and considering them pretty.  Pretty clouds over Leicester he said.  I was contemplating other things and have a much less romantic view of clouds and was thinking it was quite probable that the cloud was actually a smoggy toxic cloud over Leicester being that Leicester is one of the most polluted cities in England.  However, I didn't say this and said instead that the cloud looked like a long-nosed very long shark.  Funnily enough, the image of the cloud shark did stay with me throughout the day.

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Day Four
Thursday - another day, and work commences and I am embroiled and can not extract myself from people all day long. The highlight of the day was a photography class. Every time I pick up my camera (any camera) it is a feeling of being at home. I am at once, calm and I have everything I need. Just holding the camera brings me joy and then when I begin to take the pictures I still love the feeling of not knowing whether the shoot will be good, but always know I will find something exciting within it. Even if the pictures are not what I expected they can be surprising and I will find pure joy in small detail. 

Day Seven 

Finally, the sun appeared and this lifted my mood no end - My flat has huge windows and when the sun comes in it really is bright and lovely inside.  I look down on the city of Leicester and on a Sunday morning it is beautifully quiet - the only sound is usually the cleaning truck that comes round to clean up Saturday nights debris.  My son went off to football fairly early and so I have peace, a good cup of coffee and a little time to think....

At present this seems random however I do feel themes and ideas will emerge for the final piece of work and it has helped me to reflect more on the days - in modern terms it ia a mindful experience!

The Art of the Diary

Diaries have been kept for centuries by people from all walks of life and this means that there is a rich history of diarists who have written about themselves, their times, their work and their art which can now be seen as historical documents that give personal narratives and stories that otherwise we would never have otherwise known.  Joan Bakewell writes; 'Most diarists write primarily for themselves of course. But few of them are unmindful that others might be interested, not only for gossipy reasons but as a record of what life was like as lived at one particular moment. History depends on diaries for the real smell of the times.' (Bakewell: 31.12.2010)

Solicitor George Coopers Diaries 1871

Diaries are generally written as a personal document and not intended, at least originally, for publication and this is why often they are so fascinating as they have thoughts that are just meant for the writer themself.  Of course, now in this age of oversharing people publish blogs and online diaries and journals and so they are instantly available.  This perhaps is not necessarily the best idea as diaries need to be looked back on as a form of memory and consideration and without that hindsight there perhaps is an element of unnecessary oversharing and a conscious act that includes understanding you already have an audience.  That is why in my own diary I will only publish a curated version that has the benefit of not considering the audience as I write. The diary above wrote extensively about his hunting exploits and beautifully illustrated and sketched throughout, here an example of his entries; 'In November 1871, he noted they had "one woodcock, 133 rabbits and two pheasants in the bag." Mr Cooper, who was born in 1846 and was 25 at the time he wrote the 1871 diary, also meticulously recorded the weather every day, with quirky comments of his own: 'Bright and beautiful morning. Such as day as we wanted yesterday!' (Mail Online: 12.01.2012).

Diaries can include so many things sketches, collected items ephemera - for instance a restaurant napkin, a postcard, a feather, a flower, a photograph - all of these things bring the diary to life and enhance the personal nature of the journey the author is describing, as the diary is experience.

The Morgan Libray and Museum states; 'Charlotte Brontë (1816–1855) relied on her diary to escape stifling work as a schoolteacher; Tennessee Williams (1911–1983) confided his loneliness and self-doubt; John Steinbeck (1902–1968) struggled to compose The Grapes of Wrath, and Bob Dylan (b. 1941) sketched his way through a concert tour.' (Morgan Library & Museum: 21.01.2011-22.05.2011)  People write diaries for many, many reasons - it could be just to reflect on the day, to record for their own memory, to quell loneliness and isolation or to explore ideas before they are fully formed. Nick Cave used his diary as a handwritten dictionary 'One hallmark of Cave’s writing style is a diverse vocabulary. A Nick Cave song never suffers for a lack of vividness and we’ve found the secret to his success: He keeps a handwritten dictionary of all his favourite words. ' (Endpaper: The Paperblanks Blog: 24.01.2013)

Nick Cave: Handwritten Dictionary

Diaries are beautiful things and there is so much more to explore here on a personal level with my own diary.  I will continue to write and dedicate myself to this in the hope that in the end I may have something that is worth sharing.



References 

Bakewell J (31.12.2010) BBC Magazine, A Point of View: The Art of the Diary [Online] Available from: https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/magazine-12092962 (Accessed 26.01.2020)

Endpaper: The Paperblanks Blog (24.09.2013) Famous Diaries: Nick Cave's Handwritten Dictionary [Online] Available from: http://blog.paperblanks.com/2013/09/famous-diaries-nick-caves-handwritten-dictionary/ (Accessed 26.01.2020)

Mail Online (12.01.2012) The watercolour diaries of a 19th century country gentleman (who preferred keeping a diary of his hunting exploits to work) [Online] Available from: https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2085661/Solicitor-George-Coopers-diaries-insight-Victorian-life-watercolour-paintings.html (Accessed 26.01.2020)

Morgan Library & Museum (21.01.2011-22.05.2011) The Diary Three Centuries of Private Lives [Online Exhibition] Available from: https://www.themorgan.org/exhibitions/the-diary (Accessed 26.01.2020)